Disappointed In Myself

 I am really feeling down this morning. I am disappointed in myself. I know I could have done better this past week and now my weight has shot back up to 209.2. That is a 7.4 pound weight gain. I did well over my anniversary and only gained 2.4 pounds when I weighed myself on Wednesday. But then my birthday hit the next day and I just ate too much. Still did better then I usually do but the real problem is I have been having a hard time getting back on track. That is what too many carbs does to me. I really really need to figure this out. I'm tired of not feeling good. 

Today is a new day though. I am hopeful for a quick drop but I'm not counting on it. I have found my body does not drop the weight as quickly as it used to when I have returned from a vacation when eating lots of goodies. But all I can do is get back on track and try again. If I fall, I just need to get back up. 

I am going to try to stay positve today and get my head out of this negative place right now. I enjoyed my birthday and anniversary week. Typically hard weeks for me when it comes to eating. I enjoy by enjoying some of my favorite foods. Should I not do that? I am torn by what the anser should be. Because I should be allowed to enjoy the things I love to eat, just like I enjoy my hobbies. But I need to really figure out this moderation things. Although I don't think I really did all that bad, clearly my body thinks otherwise. It's trying to find that balance that works for my body. Nobody else, but me. Everyone is different. 

Ok, time to pick myself up and soldier on. I CAN do better and WILL do better. Onward....