Monday, October 27, 2025

Disappointed In Myself

 I am really feeling down this morning. I am disappointed in myself. I know I could have done better this past week and now my weight has shot back up to 209.2. That is a 7.4 pound weight gain. I did well over my anniversary and only gained 2.4 pounds when I weighed myself on Wednesday. But then my birthday hit the next day and I just ate too much. Still did better then I usually do but the real problem is I have been having a hard time getting back on track. That is what too many carbs does to me. I really really need to figure this out. I'm tired of not feeling good. 

Today is a new day though. I am hopeful for a quick drop but I'm not counting on it. I have found my body does not drop the weight as quickly as it used to when I have returned from a vacation when eating lots of goodies. But all I can do is get back on track and try again. If I fall, I just need to get back up. 

I am going to try to stay positve today and get my head out of this negative place right now. I enjoyed my birthday and anniversary week. Typically hard weeks for me when it comes to eating. I enjoy by enjoying some of my favorite foods. Should I not do that? I am torn by what the anser should be. Because I should be allowed to enjoy the things I love to eat, just like I enjoy my hobbies. But I need to really figure out this moderation things. Although I don't think I really did all that bad, clearly my body thinks otherwise. It's trying to find that balance that works for my body. Nobody else, but me. Everyone is different. 

Ok, time to pick myself up and soldier on. I CAN do better and WILL do better. Onward....




Saturday, October 18, 2025

Feeling Good!

 Today is my 22nd Wedding Anniversary and I am feeling great! I have noticed my pain levels have gone down some. So that is great news! I feel better all and all. My mood is better! I do think half of that is I don't have the guilt I carry when I just can't seem to get things together and the other half is just feeling better with eating better! 

Things are getting a bit easier now. My cravings have gone down a lot for carbs which is great news! I have been staying pretty low aside from my pasta night I had a few nights ago. Yesterday my carbs were at 28 which is great! Thursday I had 39 and Wednesday 12! With each day the cravings get better and better! I am at the point where I am in a good place and it's getting easier to stick with the diet. 

My weight progress is going great. I was at 201.8 this morning!! My progress the first few weeks has been great. I do believe when I started Keto the last time my calories were on the high end so my weight loss was slower at first. So this time, I am trying to stay around 1200 calories as well as keeping the carbs low so I can make good progress and good progress is happening! 

I have a wedding to go to today and then I will be going away for my Anniversary on Sunday afternoon and will be gone until Tuesday night. I am determined to do well and at least not gain much weight, if any, while I'm gone on our trip!

I would really like to see me get down to the 190's soon! I have a doctore appointment on November 25th and would really like to see myself get back to the 180's. Fingers crossed! I will do my best!




 

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Couldn't Be Happier!

I could not be happier with my results so far this week! I am down to 202.8! I have dropped down a pound from yesterday alone! I have 8 days until my birthday and I'm really starting to think I can make my goal of getting to the 190's by then! 


I was a little worried about my weigh in this morning. I had a soda from McDonalds yesterday morning and was worried it was regular coke and not diet and was worried about the calories that would add if it was regular coke. I ended up dumping some of it as I wasn't sure. Then I made the decision to have my daughters left over fettucini alfredo last night. But I had very low carbs all day, I figured I would try it and see. I still was only at 53 carbs yesterday! So I did well!! And clearly, what I ate was ok, because here I am down a pound from yesterday! But let's just say I won't be eating pasta regularuly. It will be a once and awhile thing! When I go to Olive Garden I always get the chicken alfredo over broccoli instead of pasta and I love it!

I have another trip coming up. I am going away with my husband from Sunday after work through Tuesday. We are going away for our anniversary and I am determined to do well! If I can keep up this motivation, I know I will work hard to do well while I'm gone. If I can get down enough before I leave, I will do what I did when I went on my trip last time and with that, I should do great and still be able to enjoy some small treats! So now I just need to stick with it and stay on track before we go!






Monday, October 13, 2025

Having A Great Week So Far

This week is going great! This is the best I have done in a long time. I know I just started on October 1st, but I really feel good about this, this time around! I have been managing my carbs well and have been staying under 40 carbs a day the last couple of days! I am finding already that the carb cravings are beginning to decrease.Maybe for now under 40 will work for me. I will keep going with it and if I find the cravings are still an issue I will lower it more. 

I am dropping weight at a decent rate right now. I was at 204.4 this morning. My motivation is high and my determination is the best it has been in awhile. All in all, I feel good about my progress and how I am doing. Maybe that goal to get to the 190's by my birthday is not out of the question. We shall see! 






Saturday, October 11, 2025

Reviewing The Last 18 Months In Hopes Of Doing Better This Year!

 I haven't really gotten into much detail of how things have been for me over the last 18 months. Most of my weight gain occured in the earlier months during this time. I really think the fact that I was pretty much heading in to post menopause by mid last year is what really has caused much of my sadness, depression and emotional eating. But I also had a lot going on and being in the emotional state I was due to menopause, that did not help. First, my daughter graduated high school in June of 2024. Don't get me wrong, I was so very proud and excited for her. But at the same time, I knew in just a few months she would be going away to college. So I found my self very emotional for a good month thinking about it. By time she went to college I was feeling better. But it was still hard watching my first born leave the nest. On top of that, my employee's husband and our handy man & friend was diagnosed with cancer in December of 2023. He was doing better but in August 2024 his cancer came back and the prognosis was not good. It was stressful for everyone at the business watching my employee and her husband go through everything they did and covering when she needed to be out. 

I had been thinking of some ideas on how to eventually stop doing the motel in a few years and creating a different business at our location down the road. While visiting a friend of mine in South Carolina in September 2024, she gave me the idea to consider looking into escape room.  In October my husband, son and I went to Lanscaster, PA for my birthday to get new bows and go to this awesome Archery Shop in Lancaster. It was a great trip, but while there we did an escape room. Well, I thought it was great! My husband and son loved it, too! So when I got home I began the planning. For 3 months straight I worked 15 hour days researching, planning and developing my business. Mind you, I have a bit of an obsessive personality. So when I get my mind set on something, sometimes it's hard for me to focus on much else. I think doing this was also a good distraction from my daughter being away from home. I opened my first escape room in mid December which was a temporary holiday themed escape room called The Great Christmas Candy Caper. By February I had my first long term room done, and by April I had all 3 of our permanet rooms up and running. Although the first 3 months were my longest days of working, at the end of December my employees husband passed away. She struggled so much and still does with his passing. So she missed a lot of work in the beginning of the year which meant it took awhile for me to get her trained on escape rooms and I was the only one running rooms for awhile. I understood what she was going through was extremely difficult, but I was getting pretty burnt out. 

The fall and winter was very stressful and I was extremely busy. Because I was working so much I did not eat the greatest at all! I also was stress eating! I continued to have to work a lot as I had to be around to help run escape rooms to ensure we were getting the income when we could. But things finally started to calm down by September of this year. Don't get me wrong, it has been worth it. I got a lot done in a short period of time and I do believe I am building something great and am determined to make it a success. My employee is finally at a place where she can cope better and really enjoys being a game master and wants to see the business succeed, too! We had a really good talk at the end of summer and things have been better ever since.  

I have tried getting back on track with my eating off and on for the last year. There has just been so much going on. I have had some physical issues that have made things hard over the last 18 months as well. I started having issues with a lot more joint paint as of last fall. I had bursitis in my knee in September 2024. My joint pain got worse then my hips really started bothering me this year. I just recently found out I have bursitis in both my hips. Most likely arthritis as well. My hips have been bothering me for months now. In July I ended up with a severe case of vertigo. The vertigo lasted for 3 days and I had awful vomitting the first day. I didn't fully recover for about a week. My heart PVC's have returned earlier this year due to stress. And I had a period after 14 months and had to have a couple of tests to make sure it was nothing serious. Cancer was a small possability and luckily I found out recently that it was not cancer and nothing serious.  It has just been a lot over the last 18 months and I am hopeful things are finally calming down so I can move forward and try to finally get back on track and lose the 40 pounds I gained over my lowest weight! 

Thursday, October 9, 2025

A Good Week!

 I was surprised to see that I had not posted since last Thursday! Well, things have gone fairly well! I went toa music festival with my daughter and was traveling for 3 days. But with that I am at 206.6 which is still down! So I am happy with that! I would have been down more but I did have few extra calories and carbs over the weekend. But I kept track of everything I ate so I wouldn't have a 5 to 10 pound weight gain! I left Saturday morning with a weight loss of 206.2 and came back at 207.4. Which is a 1.2 pound weight gain. That is excellent for me when going away!! I am almost back to 206.2 and hope to be there tomorrow, then I can focus on continuing to drop! 

I still have not found a lot of time to go over my posts from when I first started Keto. I have done a little bit of reviewing but hope to do more today and tomorrow! 



Friday, October 3, 2025

A Good Start

 10/2/25 - I had a good start to my new journey I began yesterday! I am down to 209.4 from 211.8 so that makes me feel better! I just have to keep up the momentum now! I took the time to create a calender to help us plan our dinners all month. My husband really liked that idea! I found out this morning he was up to 284 yesterday but dropped to 280 this morning. He has gained more then I realized so I am glad to have him starting with me. 

My carbs were a bit high yesterday. I had 132 grams of carbs but 51 grams of that was fiber! I am trying to stay under 75 carbs right now so a net of 81 is on the high side. I will try to get that down. One thing I do enjoy having is Fiber One Cereal which is what gives me most of those carbs. Once I get through my first week I will try to limit my consumption of Fiber one to no more then once or twice a week. 

I'm going to go through my old posts and figure out what I've done for lunch and breakfast most days so I can have some better choices here at work. I think ultimately I would like to get back to under 50 grams of carbs, but if I still have cravings with that I will then consider going under 20 grams of carbs like I did to initially lose the weight. Lots to think about and see what is going to work while trying to keep my diet a little more normal and less stringent on just meats and vegetables. But we will see. I will do what I have to at this point! 

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Partners In Crime

 My husband and I do not help each other with eating. We are both bad influences on our diet as we both suffer from food addiction. But I made a pact with him yesterday that we are going to start a new on October 1st! So here we are, day 1 of our commitment together. 

I for one am going to do my best to finally focus and get this weight down. Work is calming down, life is not quite as hectic so this is a good time to try to lose weight and not just maintain which I have been doing over the summer. My weight this morning was 211.8 as my husband and I had a cheat day yesterday, so I'm not surprised! But today is the first day of the rest of my life! I can do this. I just need to get back down and maintain like I have all summer long. I am getting better at maintaing my weight. Last fall I had a lot going on and that is where the largest part of my weight gain occured. I have a doctors appointment in 2 months so I am determined to get to the 180's by then. But these are only words. I need to prove it in my actions!

Wish me luck!