Day 12 - I Just Don't Know What To Say!

1/13/20 - I weighed in this morning and was down yet another pound!! I just don't know what to say! LOL! I haven't dropped weight like this in a long long time! Years really! I am clearly doing something right! I am trying to stay focused and keep doing what I'm doing!

Simple Compromise Goes A Long Way!

1/12/20 - Small compromises go along way! Meals at our house have to be kid friendly. I don't like having to make myself separate meals and, quite frankly, even if I did how long would I want to do that for? It would get old super quick! So it's just a matter of making changes to my portions and toppings to keep it healthy and keep me on track! 

We had tacos tonight and I had 4 corn tortillas with 3 ounces of ground beef total on all 4 with a sprinkle of cheese then piled with lots of veggies and sour cream to finish them off! A quarter of an avocado made up my side. The meal was delicious and only 645 calories! 

Day 11 - Still Dropping!

1/12/20 - Can't believe my eyes, but I'm still dropping even after yesterdays weigh in. Down another .4 pounds! Woohoo!

I feel so amazing right now. Apparently the low fat healthy diet I have switched to is really working. This is the diet I always turned to when I've lost weight in the past. I have tried several other diets, because I didn't want to give up my high fat foods to be quite frank, and clearly they were not nearly as effective! I am so glad I went back to what I know  and what was most effective for me in the past!!

Day 10 - January 11, 2020 Weigh In - Whoaa!!

Happy Saturday! I hopped on the scale this morning for quite the shock! I am down 9 pounds since last Friday and 12.2 since January 2nd!! From 259 to 246.8 in 9 days!! I'll take it!

This is the most weight I have ever dropped in such a short period! Apparently my body was begging for change and is responding well to the healthier changes I have made.

Obviously I was retaining a LOT of fluid! All in all I feel better and my mood has improved. I know not to expect this every week! I am happy with 5 pounds a month to be perfectly honest! But this little jump start certainly boosts my confidence with my new changes and will help encourage me to keep doing what I'm doing!

Day 5 - Goals!

January 6, 2020 -

My ultimate weight loss goal is to drop 60 pounds. But I know that will take some time and I am not going to rush through this process! I have a goal to drop 10 pounds at a time and celebrate the small victories along the way rather then fixating myself on that larger number! I have no time frame set. Just to keep going down rather then up! 

I currently exercise 2 times a week at TKD but hope to increase that to 5 times a week. Between work and TKD I am usually pretty active so exercise is not as big of a concern for me. 

Food is my biggest issue! I have been eating horribly over the last 3 years which included a very high fat diet! So I am challenging myself to stay on a low fat diet as that has been very effective for me in the past. Everyone is different and I think different diet approaches work better for some then others. My other goal is everything in moderation and staying away from too many bad carbs. Not snacking at work on candy when I'm hungry and making sure I go to the healthier snacks I now have available to me there. Keeping my freezer packed with lunch stuff so I can eat lunch at work is another goal of mine as I pretty much eat out for lunch everyday. 

My motivation is really to just feel better! Since I put all this weight back on I can feel my body protesting. I don't like how I feel and want to make this change to feel better. It's just taken me awhile to get it through my thick head to start focusing and taking care of myself! LOL! But hey, better late then never. And of course my drive to live a long healthy life is great motivation, but I need to stay focused and remember that during those harder moments! There will be rewards along the way. I will allow myself to buy a new Lego set every time I lose 10 pounds! ;) Here's to the better me all around in 2020!

Day 2 - Day One Went Well!

January 3, 2020 - After just one day my body is letting go of some water, still a win, and I am down 3.1 pounds to 255.8. So I am very happy with that! My ultimate goal is to lose 60 pounds so if I can drop off a few of these pounds quickly that just makes the beginning of my journey that more invigorating!

Day 1 - A Brand New Start!

January 2, 2020 - Today I made the commitment to get back on track! I have struggled for the last 3 and a half years! My last time really staying focused was May of 2015. I was down to 182.3. With so many hard things going on in my life the last several years I have had so much difficulty pulling it together!

First my Mom having issues with memory, a stroke then dementia in 2016 which carried on into 2017. She passed in July 2017. That probably had the biggest impact on me of everything that has gone on in the last 3 plus years. Then we bought a motel at the end of 2017 and had a lot of work trying to build that business and remodel the motel. And then in 2019 my sister had a stroke in February in which I traveled 4 hours round trip for over 8 weeks to see her in rehab.

My eating habits became horrendous! A very high fat diet is what I got accustom to over the last several years. I just ate what I enjoyed and didn't care for so long.

I weighed in at 259 this morning. I am not going to even comment on that number. Today is a new day and I'm not going to dwell on the past but look to the future and what it will bring!

I am determined to get my focus and drive back. But most importantly remember to take care of me! Today it begins. Not a New Years resolution but a day that I have chosen to begin fresh and start over. The holidays are behind me, now it's time to start this transformation!

Onward....

The Beast Did Well!

I had a good day yesterday! Toast for breakfast as I was out of milk so didn't have cereal or anything else interesting in the fridge for breakfast! Thankfully I got to the grocery store yesterday afternoon! I had a salad and parfait for lunch and enjoyed a roast with carrots, onions & potatoes for dinner. Also had to have some corn bread! But all in all a good busy day. Between cleaning and chocolate making I got in lots of excercise.

Now to keep going and hope for a decent weight loss by Wednesday!

Feeling like beast mode today!

I weighed in today and was down a 1/2 a pound from yesterday. I'm determine to start doing better.

I need to start focusing on why I want to lose weight and remember those reasons whenever I want to snack on something that is not good for me.  Here is a list of reasons I would like to lose weight.

Sick of the aches and pains that seem to be getting worse!
Sick of my clothes getting too tight!
Sick of being tired and feeling run down!
Sick of feeling guilty for not getting healthy!

So I am in beast mode today! I want to work hard and do my best and see some good results by Wednesday morning!!

Wish me luck!

Weigh in 11/17/17

Was up 1.8 pounds this week. I had about 3 good days this week considering my retreat. Onward!

Weigh in 11/08/17

Weighed in at 241.4. Down 3.5 from last Friday! Now to get through my scrapbook retreat!

If At First You Don't Succeed, Try, Try Again!

My mom had a rough time since Spring of 2016. She started with hallucinations then was diagnosed with dementia. She passed away July 31, 2017. To say it has been a very tough year and a half would be an understatement. It has been one of the worst times of my life witnessing my mom's struggle, then decline and then her passing.

We have always been very close. Best friends. And to lose her was like losing a part of me. I miss her everyday but I know she would want me to get back on track and get healthy again. I let everything going on get in the way of staying healthy.

I am now up over 60 pounds from my lowest weight in spring of 2014. So dissappointing but I also know what I've been going through so I try not to beat myself up over it. But if I can't get myself back on track now, it's just going to get worse.

I am closing on a new property for my business this month and that has been quite stressful as well. We've been trying to buy this property since May! I won't go into it, but it's been another thing that has kept me very busy!

But now it's time for me to regain my focus! I am at 244.9 pounds as of this past Friday. My weight just seems to slowly climb up and up and up. I have GOT TO stop this pattern and get headed in the other direction.

Today marks my new beginning and getting back to healthier habbits! I will certainly try to post more often. I know I've struggled off and on to keep this up the last couple of years but I am hopeful that I can start my journal for the long haul again!

Wish me luck!