Time To Buckle Down

What a year it has been! I have had such a hard time getting focused over the last year. Not sure what is going on with me but I can't help but think it is hormonal! I'm not blaming the weight gain on hormones but my emotions from the hormones that is driving me to eat. I just need to be stronger then my emotional roller coaster I have been on.

This week I haven't managed to get my shit together yet. But today is a new day. I need to remind myself that my clothes are getting too, I hurt with this extra weight on me and not getting this weight off is making me somewhat depressed!

I have two months until I go back and see my doctor and I would really like to be in the 180's by then! I was 208.4 this morning. I just need to do my best and start focusing on me instead of everything else in my life right now!

Clean Slate!

 Ok, I know it's been a tough year for me. I have just had such a difficult time focusing and it's getting to be rediculous. But I've had a lot going on and I do understand why it's been difficult, but I am hopefull it can and will get better. 

My weight on 9/17 was 208.4 and I've been fluctuating up and down since. Today I am making a better effort by bringing some food options in for me to work to try out. I am still convinced that I can have healthy carbs and do this. I am still trying to work out the best method and I think I am getting there! 

I don't have a lot of time to journal today, but I will be back soon to journal about the last few months in more detail. I weighed in around 207.4 this morning. I didn't take the time to record it, but that is close enough. Now to work my way back to the 190's and go from there!